What Bipolar Is All About!!!

Bipolar disorder is characterized by extreme mood swings between mania or elevated mode and depression. The best place to get expert information on this disorder is the National Institute of Mental Health. Manic-depression distorts moods and thoughts, incites dreadful behaviors, destroys the basis of rational thought, and too often erodes the desire and will to live. It is an illness that is biological in its origins, yet one that feels psychological in the experience of it; an illness that is unique in conferring advantage and pleasure, yet one that brings in its wake almost unendurable suffering and, not infrequently, suicide.

What this is saying is that a person who has this nasty disorder does not realize that they are acting strange. A lot of times a bipolar does realize that their actions are not quite right, but can't stop acting in that particular way. A lot of times what happens is that the manic side happens so fast that the person has no control over it because they didn't know it was going to happen. They may realize that they are in a very bad mood, but until someone walks up to them and says or does something stupid, they don't plan on being snappy or grouchy, it just happens.

People who have no clue might say something really dumb like 'Why don't you get control of yourself?' Why indeed? Because they cannot. They didn't know they were going to snap at you so how could they prepare themselves to not do it? Bipolars are very moody people, yet they also can have good days where they feel good and little things do not bother them. On bad days it does not take much to set them off. The best thing for others to do is to leave them alone on their bad days. How do you know they're having a bad day? It is not hard to figure out.

Bipolar people need a stress free environment, if at all possible. Children are very stressful! Especially hyperactive children. There are many days lately where I am so short of screaming it would not take much to cause it. Lately, I must stay in my bedroom to get away from the children who will not leave me alone. I want to be left alone so that I can do things on my computer that needs to be done. I need quiet, not quiet from like tv, that is no bother, but quiet from my own mind, from having to redirect my thoughts to another line of thought, which certainly means the possibility of forgetting something, but more just means to me that nobody has any respect for my having a life of my own. I do not care if someone thinks 'she sits on the computer all day, how is that a life?' It is a life, it's mine and that is what I choose to do.