No Medication

I don't take any medicine right now and I need some. But it is hard to find a doctor where I live. I had two already. The first one was like 83 years old or something and he didn't remember things very well. When the pharmacy called him to get my meds rx he did not even get my chart out to make sure he was prescribing what he needed to be prescribing, so he told them the wrong medicine. Plus, the first visit, he wanted me to start taking this medicine immediately and when I said I didn't think that I had enough money to get the meds, he handed me $150.00 cash so that I could go and get it. The medicine put me to sleep and I was only able to be awake 3 hours a day. It messed up my eyesight and made me walk tilted over. Can't say I was impressed. Then I went to a second doctor and he wanted to put me on medicine that the first one had just gotten me off of, and that was not even approved for use on bipolar people. So, I'm kind of not real enthused about doctors right now.

Got the curse again and I think that this somehow effects the bipolar too. Seems like everything does. Oh well. Now I am heading down to the depression end of things after having been in a manic phase for the past month. Sometimes it just is too much. Never seems like it will get to a point where I can just be me.